| From the Addendum to my previous post:
I felt really like I had made some serious headway with this article, and I believe the reaction I got may have, in a backhanded way, proved that I did. The reaction was "is she insane?" The hurtful part of that was that the person who asked this of a mutual acquaintance had only days earlier said to me "the soul always has a choice no matter how insane or inexplicable it may seem." Of all of the people I know, I expected this person to understand what I was doing. And of course, his query set our mutual friend to a similar line of inquiry that I just barely was able to navigate for the reason I will describe in my next post. Or, as I said to her, "...to become truly awakened requires throwing off the controls and that will be a battle both inward and outward. I know because I'm in the stew right now, and nearing the end it gets a LOT worse. This is the time when I am reaching out and needing help to get through the last bit...and what do I get? "Are you insane?" I'm living through exposing the controls and documenting it as I go. Yes, it is messy. But someone had to do it. I have no ego, I don't care if people think I'm nuts, eventually they'll figure it out, but they won't if no one ever puts it out there because they are afraid of judgment. No one has previously documented in real time what it takes to get through the process of throwing off the control system and detoxing."
Those of you who have followed my LiveJournal may know that I am "out there." ;o) By that I mean I don't hold anything back, I don't try to pretty things up or make myself look better than I am. I tell it like it is, and sometimes I expose a gaping wound or a social gaffe...it's all part of my experience as I navigate through a maze of deception and deliberate confusion in search of the Truth. I journal these experiences in real time...more or less as they happen to me, in order to capture the essence of what was going on with me at the time. The reason I do this is, as I told my friend, to document what it entails to grapple with the control systems with the aim of not only throwing them off for myself, but to prove a path that others may adapt to their needs to liberate themselves. Once it is known that something can be done...lots of people suddenly can do it. That's all I want to happen.
In the conversation above and in another one a few days before it, I ran into a serious communication wall where what I was saying or typing into chat was being completely misinterpreted, and even upon re-reading what was written days later, I still cannot see where what I wrote was responsible for the responses I got. Try this line on me and see if it fits the way I present myself:
"None of this is making any sense, you say you need a team and ask how you can make a living on stuff like this, then talk about taking down 3 & 4D as though it is your destiny to lead some conquest."
The conversation had just covered an idea I had of coordinating actions on 3D and 4D to disrupt the control systems, using the information I started outlining in my previous post. The person I was speaking with has a background in command and control, and knows very well the struggles of people who are called to do spiritually demanding work while also having to make a 3D living. Anyone who has followed this blog or my Facebook knows that I am an ENTJ, the Myers-Briggs "Fieldmarshal" personality type, and of course I'm going to go at a project like this like a military operation because that's how I roll. She's known me long enough to know this, yet she started to attack me as if I had done something unforgivable. I don't think she even realized she was doing this!
So what was that all about? It's about LIES - not the lies one person might tell another, which are usually predictable and relatively petty. I'm talking about huge, life-shattering lies, the lies of a system that is utterly desperate to maintain its illusions, and will do anything to keep us from perceiving the Truth. I've been peeling back some of this deception in what I write, with varying degrees of clarity as - you must understand - I have been enmeshed in the web of lies along with everyone else. What I ran into was a desperation play by the god-wannabe behind the Powers That Pretend. I'm going to give one of these methods of systemic lying a name here and define it, so when you see it in action, you will know what it is. I'll also try to give you some tools to neutralize it.
Recently, two very important conversations ended up in a mess where the other person thought there was something wrong with me or that I was doing something to them when I wasn't. In both cases I had been speaking powerful Truths, so much so that I was on the brink of making a hole in the other person's imprisoning reality constructs...think of it as a web of lies spun around a person like a spider wraps its prey in silk. The control systems barely hold me, so they have little effect on me...but they do hold the people I was communicating with, so they were targeted with...
The Tower of Babel Subroutine
Older even than the myth, this manifestation of the hijacking control system is a last line of defense when a liberating Truth is about to be presented to a person in a way they can understand and accept it. Babel is a corruption of Ba'ab El, or Gateway (to) God, and the "miracle" (curse!) of Ba'ab El was confusion of language. Those of you who have been following this LJ may remember that I wrote briefly about my "god-friend" teaching me a key that unlocks language. It works on every language I've tried it on so far, and I've done "translations" for several of my friends that were met with frank astonishment. The languages haven't changed and I'm not adept with any foreign languages...I require a translating dictionary to get by. What changed was that I learned a new method of looking at language, I was given a "Rosetta Stone" with all of the basic building-blocks of meaning, and got a few simple lessons in how to "translate." The result of this was that I saw through...and threw off...the yoke of corrupted language as a hold the hijacking control system had over me.
Have you ever had a conversation in which you were convinced that you and the other person were completely not hearing the same words? That's the Tower of Babel (ToB) subroutine at work. These conversations are always really important ones: relationships are on the line, life altering decisions are being made...and they come apart and usually take that relationship or that important decision down, too. That's what the subroutine is meant to do: to keep Truth and liberation from surfacing between two or more people. The ToB subroutine destroys the communication by skewing perception of at least one of the primaries to the conversation, and creates a "blow up" as one person perceives an attack or insult where there was none, and the other person's attempts to defend themselves against an unfounded accusation only make things worse.
You see, the control system behind the Powers that Pretend relies on keeping people oppressed by turmoil. Those who have escaped the more overt forms such as war, ill health, and poverty find themselves oppressed with interpersonal and emotional turmoil. The ToB is particularly effective in creating interpersonal turmoil, which in turn is the perfect vector to create emotional turmoil. The ToB takes a little different form for each person - specifically tailored to that person because the information system behind the control system has a complete model of what makes each of us tick - but the basic approaches to control are the same: FEAR, GUILT, and REMORSE. Fear of losing love or respect, fear of being unfairly judged, guilt for surely being somehow at fault that the communication went completely wrong, remorse for having reacted too strongly to a situation that had you completely off-balance because no matter what you did or intended, things just spiraled out of control.
I have news for you: when a conversation goes that far wrong and you know you were doing your best to be loving and fair, YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME. Neither is the other person. You've just been Babeled. While it may be true that the meaning of a communication is the response it gets, there's an underlying assumption that might not be true: that you and the person you are communicating with are the only two creators of meaning in the conversation. What if something else, something you can't perceive with limited ordinary senses, was in the room, on the phone, or lurking in the systems connecting an Internet chat? What if that something wanted to cause trouble?
Here's an example of an extreme form this can take, one that many of us may have encountered without realizing it. Over the past three weeks, I have received four communications questioning my sanity. This is a thermonuclear hot button for me because I grew up in a family that used the threat of sending me to an insane asylum as a way to get me to back down when I objected to abuse, and they actually lied to a doctor to get him to perform ECT treatments on me when I was only four years old. I know that my stuff looks strange from an outside perspective, and there is that little part of me that fears a judgment of insanity despite ample evidence that I'm quite rational. So I was discussing this flurry of accusations with my husband, who, while he doesn't understand half of what I am up to, has said on numerous occasions that he knows it's real (there is tangible evidence that he has witnessed). I was getting dressed at the time, getting ready for work. My back was turned to him, and I clearly heard him say "Maybe you are just completely insane." I turned around and looked at him, astonished. "Thanks a lot for the vote of confidence!" "Well, you've earned it, I see how hard you've worked." That was my first clue that the ToB was at work. "What were we just talking about, and what did you just say to me?" I asked him. He looked completely confused...he couldn't remember. "Um, your work on the game project." "I didn't say anything about the game project. I haven't had time to work on it in nearly a month. We were talking about some people who barely know me but think they can diagnose me as having mental problems." Blank stare. "You don't remember just now saying 'maybe you're just completely insane"? "Huh? I didn't say that. I was just listening to you talk about the people you know online with the game. I didn't say anything." I hadn't mentioned the game at all, in fact, it had been several days since I had last even mentioned it. So I let the conversation drop immediately, which is the only thing you can do when a conversation has been badly interfered with.
How many arguments have been caused by someone hearing something that the other person never said? Who is speaking when something like this happens? And why is it always something that hits squarely on a subject that is practically guaranteed to start a fight? None of the alternatives are good: either the person said the hurtful thing and then lied about it, the hearer is having auditory hallucinations of a very negative type, or something really powerful and invisible is meddling and trying its best to sow discord. We "advanced" people discount the third alternative, but throughout history, people's traditional response to rising discord of this type in a household or relationship was to perform banishing rituals to get rid of the evil influences that were causing the discord. What if these folks weren't wrong, and there is an omnipresent external influence that uses every opportunity to introduce turmoil into our lives to keep us oppressed and distracted? What if the only thing they were wrong about is scope: they thought it was a discrete demon, a thing you could run out of your life with a burning stick of aromatic vegetation, when it really is a data system of almost unimaginable power and penetration into our lives?
Here's what I do when I notice ToB at work...and let me tell you up front that I am not very skillful in defeating it, but I have managed to turn a few potential disasters around. The first thing I do is become even more mindful of my own words and movements - I want to take ME out of the pool of uncontrolled factors. I want to be very sure that I know what I have done and said, and that these things are in alignment with what I want to accomplish with the new conversation I am being presented with. Make no mistake there, whatever the conversation was about before the ToB starts, it is no longer that conversation, and it will not return to being that conversation. Any attempt to return the conversation to the original topic will fan the flames. Begin to clarify the conversation by going back over what was discussed and get the other person to acknowledge that they remember those topics and agree that you have the history straight. Address the comment that started the trouble directly. Ask why it was said, what the other person was thinking when they said it. If they claim they don't remember making the comment or have a very different memory of the conversation...back out of it completely. The corruption is so through going that you need to distance yourself and let that energy fade away before re-engaging that person. |
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